It is hard to imagine that Weston used to be a tiny little baby. He was born on December 19, 2006 in the early morning hours. He came out screaming, and other than the doctor I was the first to see him as the nurse whisked him over to the baby station where she poked and prodded him as she took his stats. He hated being bothered and he screamed and screamed. I snapped some photos of him anyway.
Above: Weston about a minute after being born.
He quieted down quickly and loved being held by both Mommy and Daddy. I slept in the room with Weston and Mommy at the hospital, and he would come over and visit me on my cot.
Above: Mommy snapped this photo of us when we fell asleep on my cot in the hospital.
He loved his Mommy VERY much. He was most content in her arms, even in recent days.
Above: Mommy and Weston in the hospital after his birth.
I still have a hard time accepting that he’s gone. It’s like a bad dream that I keep thinking I will wake up from any moment. Grief and loss is an interesting thing. I know I have spoken a lot about my faith in God these past few days, and I speak of it a lot because that is the only thing that is certain. When I just don’t feel I can go on, my God picks me up and carries me through the day. I can feel His presence, and see His love. He is not a dream, an imagination, or a made-up device. He is real. His love is real, and my prayer is that others will be able to experience Him in a real way. Some may say I’ve lost it, some may say I’m kooky. Haha. No, I am quite composed all things considered. Won’t you talk to Christ today? See if He is real to you. If you don’t find Him to be true, loving, or real then feel free to call me kooky. But until you’ve given Him a try, don’t assume I’ve lost I’m my mind.
On a lighter note: If you never knew Weston, let me just tell you…he was hilarious. He loved to laugh, and he loved to make others laugh. In the midst of my tears, I smile when I think of the many funny things Weston did on a daily basis. I have no doubt that he is making the angles in heaven laugh even now.
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Clay and Erin-
I woke up this morning with you on my mind and went straight to the Lord in prayer that he would continue to comfort you and give you strength each and every day. Reading your blog has given me peace and has strengthened my faith. I thank God for giving you the strength to continue to share your testimony and pray that someone that reads it that is lost will come to know Him and have a personal relationship with Him. I love you both dearly and think of you daily as I lift you up in prayer.
Love in Christ, Carla